What can I say? For the very first time in a really really really long time. I let myself do absolutely nothing, well almost nothing. For someone that is constantly on the move and always wanting to be able to get things done it was REFRESHING. Normally when I just sit still I am easily tempted to just get up and find something to do. Besides waking up with a terrible headache I managed to get myself up out of bed and then found myself at the hotel gym. Baby steps people! Baby steps! On another note, another first for me was going out to eat on my own. Table for one please.
I’m slowly finding that this whole independence thing is not that bad. I use to get anxiety over even asking about things on a food menu or when I’d have to ask for things at shopping counter. It is funny how much someone changes over their lifetime. One thing I’ve come to realize that I’m learning about myself is once you get comfortable with where you are at, you get even more scared of trying something new. It’s the unfamiliar and not knowing the end result is what pushes people back to their safe zones. So for now, I’m learning its okay to look stupid, its okay to ask questions, and just keep trying to push yourself into new things. I’m noting this now because lets face it, I’m going to have to continue to tell myself as the days pass during this trip and just meeting people along the way.